Am I too old to have a crush? An Instagram crush at that. I’m childish, huh? So I slid in this guy’s DMs last year. No, I’m not a chronic DM slider. He’s the only DM I’ve slid in, promise. Admittedly, when I did it, I had a few margaritas and was sitting at table with some of my closest friends, who’d dared me to do it. It was a safe space. Anyway, I slid right, and then…crickets. After about 12 hours of no response, I just deleted the message I sent. I couldn’t take the rejection. In hindsight, I could have waited a bit longer for a response. Why didn’t I wait? He hadn’t even seen the message yet, but just the thought of him ignoring my message caused me to move hastily and possibly miss on out something. Who knows, we could have been married by now. Sigh.
Anyway, I kinda forgot about him (I wasn’t following him) until he and someone I follow were on some millennials list and there he was, back in my life like he never left. That was a month ago. I’ve stalked him from a far, watched every IG story and probably liked every picture, but something is different. The novelty of having a crush has worn off. I blame social media. Maybe I have too much access to him. Maybe he’s too ‘normal’ now. Maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe I’ll shoot my shot again.
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